Heartbroken. (All cried out)

Dear 11 followers,

I've fallen for it.
Love, that is.

Although we lived 447 miles away from each other,
I was so sure he was the one.
Maybe he was,
but his STUPID friend ruined it all.
:'(

Maybe I should fill you in....
Wayyyy back in August of 2009 I lost everything.
My best friend, my boyfriend...
all in a span of about..
a week. Maybe less.
Anywho,
I prayed to God.
Man, did I pray.
I prayed for comfort..and less than a day later I found my new bestfriend.
I prayed for someone to accept me the way I was... a friend.
and I waited..
for five months.
God gave me *him*
My intentions were to be "Just friends"...
Why?
I wasn't ready, I was hurt... sooo bad from the last breakup.
I found Inkpop, then I found him.
We added each other on Facebook. (I bet you're saying, "BAD IDEA!!!!") but no, I knew what I was doing. It felt right adding him.
Sooo...we talked..and talked...on Facebook. About everything. And it felt perfect. The purpose of everyday was talking to him..even for atleast 5 minutes. Ahaa, we even traded phone numbers so we could text each other.
I didn't realize he was the friend I asked for until yesterday...
When I ruined it all.
Anywho, sorry. I just needed to vent.
Writing wise?
GREATNESS.
All this pain is giving me inspiration!!!!
Sooo...I guess that's the plus side to being heartbroken?!
ahaa.
Thanks for listening, followers.
You're the bomb.
:D
Until next time,
from Carter's laptop,
Carter Storm

Does anyone notice a pattern??

DEAR AMAZING 11 FOLLOWERS!!

You guys do realize I'm going to have to get a new pair of glasses soon, right? Apparently, each time I get on this thing my number of followers seems to double or something...anywho - THANKS!!! your support means A LOT to me on my writing journey!!

Okay, writing wise - Ive only wrote about 2 chapters in the past 2 weeks...(sad face)...yes, yes, i know, i know - go ahead and through those tomatoes at me. I deserve them. :| As i was saying, this little thing called life has had me dangling off the edge of the Empire State Building ever since i tried out for my Highschool track team - and made it. Yes, little 95 pound Carter Storm actually found something she's good at. HAHA...NOT!! i love it, don't get me wrong - but instead of getting easier, its getting harder..but who am i to complain??
STOP - before i get too off topic, remember those 2 chapters i mentioned earlier?? Well, on the bright side they're pretty good and won't need to be edited but oh...a couple thousand times more...(give or take a few) *sarcasm*

Now Im honestly wondering if any of YOU are wondering what the title of this blog means?? (Crickets chirp in the distance)....No one?? *Sigh.....

1) My mom popped something in her BACK out of place...sound familiar?? (if not, scroll down to earlier posts)...
2)My Ex-Boyfriend..you know, the one im "Over"?? Turns out - he's dating my best friend..yes, the woe of being 13..I think I'll survive.

On a good note to end with, my Church's youth group started back!! (Happy Face)!!!
and i got a new laptop!! (EXTREME happy face)

Thanks again for the FOLLOWSHIP!! (hehe.) it means a lot.
Until next time,

From my new laptop,
Carter Storm

"I wanna be your A-N-G-E-L" - Natasha Bedingfield

Dear 8 FOLLOWERS!!!,

juss saying, but that felt great...the whole "8 followers" thing. I seriously cleaned my glasses off i was so baffled. hehe.

Okay...i should start with the whole 'writing' thing, considering this was supposed to be my place to vent about writing....er...look how well that went?? *sarcasm*

Okay man, writing wise, it has been GREAT lately - editing has been a blast!! *sarcasm* Okay, in all truth, i absolutely hate editing - but you gotta do what you gotta do. Even if that means super gluing your lazy bottom to a seat while everyone else is outside - you still gotta find a way to edit...unless if you 1) are perfect, which i seriously doubt or 2)enjoy reading suckish work.
As i was saying, the editing stage has been alot better than i thought - considering i pretty much live in my own little world nowadays..haha. In the other hand |(Equivalent to the big fat word called, 'BUT') my novel on inkpop is going downnnnn |
veryt fast...haha, or should i say up?? urgh, the way inkpop does things is so confusing sometimes..oh well, i'm just glad i have a place to find out if im any good or not!

Moving right along now....I bet you're wondering what the title means, aren't you?? Not really?? okay, well, i guess i'll tell you any ways? Anyways, i've moved on from the jerk face that broke my heart.. (but your only 13??) yes, yes, i am 13 - but we young ones can still be heart broken - especially after a 9 month long relationship. You see, i sort of met someone...aha, and this dude is greatness...so far. Im still worried he aint cut out for what he says he is - but by my calculations, this dude rocks...haha.

Well, until next time my 8 followers (happy dance!)

From my sister's computer,
Carter Storm

How random outbursts of poetry, broken hearts and backs, Harry Potter, Snow, my ex-boyfriend, my novel, my laptop and 5 Blog followers are connected.

Dear fellow 5 followers!!!
you are amazing, it felt great saying fellow 5 followers instead of 'invisible' followers!! haha.

Now, you're probably wondering what the title means, right?? (does the raspberry in your face) not going to happen until you read all of this blog post! After that, you'll sit back and think, "Hmm..now that you think about it - they are connected!!"

First off, i would like to apoligize for not posting in a while, my papaw broke his back while falling down the stairs...and, well, let's just say that was a 'trip' I really didn't want to take. (No pun intended..) *sarcasm* =D

Update from the last post: My laptop IS fixed..well, not really!! I just got this really cool thing that you stick in the USB whatchamacalit of your laptop - then WALLA, you have instant wireless internet access...after you install the stupid software and take the stupid survey from the CO.!!! So technically speaking, my dear old laptop's days are numbered.

Also, my school is back in session after about a month of no school due to inclement (SNOW!!!) weather!! Yay! Now we're going to be going to school LONG after most kids are outside swimming the warm weather!! Or in my case, outside in the mountains writing?? Aren't I special?? Or in my words, 'ain't i special?'(Kentucky slang, ya'll wouldnt understand!!)


I bet you're wondering if I'm using my laptop right at this precise moment?? My answer...NO.
Why?? It's all my Obsessiveness with Harry Potter's fault, it wasn't me, I PROMISE!! You see, I'm getting my room re done in Harry Potter....and Percy Jackson! Well, also a cross with a girl praying!! so..yep!
GOODBYE disgusting 6 year old purple butterflies decor. - hello (nerdy) teenage black and maroon gryfindor EVERYTHING!!
Guess what I also get for my 14th B-day?? I WRITING DESK!! not just any regular desk, mind you - a WRITING DESK!!! It's going to be great, i tell you - GREAT!! FINALLY A PLACE I CAN CLUTTER MY WITH MY WRITING IDEAS!! gosh, that's what I've always wanted...haha! What 13 year old wants something like that..not very many i guess!!

Okay, my ex boyfriend is OUT of the hospital..he has been for awhile... =/ And rumor is around my pitifully small school (okay, well, technically it's coming from an untrusted source) that he wants to be more than my ex - the jerk face was lucky just to get the first chance!! He broke my heart and the promise he made to me, and he expects me to run back like all the girls in the mooshy gooshy romance novels out there?? I DON'T THINK SO BUDDY!!

Well...my novel on Inkpop.com is doing fairly well..it's not in the top 5...yet! But it wil be! Trust me, it has to be! haha. Also, I'm going to start editing the next 3 chapters!! yay me!! *sarcasm* I hate and love editing..I hate it because i re read through my old stuff and see how much i sucked a week ago. I love it because I'll re read through it and read through the stuff i read a week ago and wonder what I could do to make it better. But I really hate editing because 'usually' (which is TEENAGE code for WHAT AM I KIDDING? I BETTER JUST RE-WRITE THE WHOLE DARN THING!)I end up re-writing the parts that extremely suck and make them better. So I guess you could say the first draft is NOTHING compared to what it is NOW!!! yes, I have rewrote the first 9 chapters about 16 times...no - it still isnt perfect.

ANYWAYS! While in a writing Crisis (I refuse to say the 'B' word) I 'usually' vent by writing poetry. Don't ask why - but it works wonders for aching wrists and empty minds. However, I recently found the BEST thing in the world:
Random outbursts of poetry.

works well when you want to freak someone you hate out.
Doesn't require pencil and paper.
It also works well when you are down in the dumps and you really need to vent.
It requires hardly any energy - and you don't even have to worry about sounding stupid.

An example?? Sorry, it has to be RANDOM. I can't just -

The careless
damsel in distress
allowed the worthless
dog to undress
her desires to be a poetess.


See? That was a RANDOM outburst of poetry. You can't just take the time to think of these, they have to be random, or else they can't be an OUTBURST. That's why it's sooo stress relieving!

As i was saying - I thank all of my (5) followers for clicking the little 'follow' button somewhere around this site!

I also hope you see how ALL of this is related somehow! Still havent figured it out?? I'll tell you!


I haven't posted in awhile because of the weather, my papaw and school. My papaw BROKE his BACK because the weather was SNOWy! And i haven't been to school because of 12-14 inches of snow.

During that time of snow - I got my USB adapter - only to find on the internet this really awesome HARRY POTTER bed room whatchamacalit.
The next day, I caught my EX BOYFRIEND staring at me all googly eyed while going to 3rd period. It brought back the good times...as well as the ones where my HEART was BROKEN in half.
That gave me inspiration to update my NOVEL and edit the next 3-4 chapters! It also got me into Writer's B****.
That then led to RANDOM OUTBURSTS OF POETRY. I began reciting poetry...randomely....

SHEW!! sorry about such the LONG blog!! It's been a month, so you all deserve it!
I realllyyyy hope you see the whole connection! 'Cause it made PERFECT sense to me!!

http://inkpop.com/projects/18861/the-forbidden-trilogy-secrets/


From my older sister's computer:
Carter Storm

Just when you think anything can get any worse - it does.

Dear Non-existent Followers,

Today went swell, Sort of.
For starters, we (finally) got to go back to school. After practically a month of no school due to weather (we had around 6 inches of snow fall in as little as 2 hours!!), we returned today. Unfortunately, I only got about 4 hours of sleep - 4 HOURS! What happened?? I have absolutely no idea.
Moving right along - something else happened at school - not really at school, but someone i know at school... Of all people, my ex-boyfriend got put in the hospital over Christmas Break, and I didnt even know!!! Not that i care - im so over the boy that broke my heart, Anyways, back to writing. I recently posted the first chapter of my novel on Inkpop...but i deleted it. Why? Well, I don't believe it sucks; i just think it wasnt doing it justice. Soo, I think im going to finish editing the second and third chapters, and then post all of them. Keep watchin' for it!
BUT, (the dreaded word in this case), how in the world is a person supposed to write if they don't have their trusty laptop??! I mean, i have pencil and paper (thats what i started out with, ya know?) but that just doesnt cut it anymore. Sadly, my laptop won't keep charge/it wont let me wirelessly get on the internet - do you know how far away my room is from the whatchamacalit? Incase you didn't know, it's Reallllyyyy far away!
So, i'm pretty much exhausted, I've got to clean my room, do my homework - and schedule in writing. Of course, I'll have to read my Bible, but i ALWAYS make time for that!
From my little brother's computer,
Carter Storm

So i guess this is the spot where i blog, right? First off, everyone that reads this needs to know a little about me, even though i have an about me already...

• I get really angry when people ask me if i wanna be a writer when i grow up. For goodness sake people, i already AM a writer. Always have been, always will be!
• I am a Christian! I love Jesus with all my heart!
• i like to complain, but i usually just keep it to myself...most of the time.

There's alot more to know about me, but no one will probably ever read this, so i guess it dont matter, after all, how many people blog a day? Exactly my point.

This blog was made mainly so i could vent about my life as a writer...excuse me, my TEENAGE life as a writer. See, i figure that most people subconciously realize they're a writer even before they could practically write. Heck, i was writing by the time i was 5! It wasn't that great, but hey, we all gotta start somewhere...so why not at the beginning of your life when you can learn from your OWN mistakes, and not other people's? As many of my non-exsistent followers realize, being a teenage Writer isn't what it seems like. Not only do we deal with zits, drama and excessive homework, teenage writers deal with imaginary voices in their heads, climaxes they just can't seem to get write, (haha, get it?), managing their time so as to not get "too caught up in their project" (urgh, i hate that word!), writer's block (did she just say the "B" word?), wondering if they will ever be published, and most importantly...well, my most importantly is finding enough sleep between my seemingly over scheduled life.

Wow, can't believe I've wrote so much. Well, that's all for tonight. Hopefully all you non existent people haven't broke something from falling backwards over your seat from boredness..

From the desk..errr, laptop, of: Carter Storm.